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  • Writer's picture MaryEllen McCloud


Over these past few months, it is as if God has been screaming at me. But really, His voice has been going out strong towards His people. DO NOT LOSE FOCUS! God has been speaking for months about healing our time in Egypt so that we can cross over. One of the main purposes of the wilderness season is for deep healing. It is stronger time where God is manifesting all around, in seen and unseen ways. He will remind us of areas that still need healing from the past. Deep emotional wounds that we thought we were fine enough with, however, at the mere mention of that old wound, we react out of it even now. Moses never healed of his wounds from being in Egypt. He had anger, resentment, and bitterness that affected how he led a group of people who were too stubborn to allow God to be their Lord. Their unhealed wounds denied them entry into the Promise Land. God will not allow us to take the old into the new because the new will just become the old. Our old way of thinking and acting will cause the Fresh atmosphere to become tainted with staleness. What we speak over our land becomes truth! Joseph said he was healed of his time in Egypt through the birth of his sons. How many blessings do we need to see before we finally allow God to heal us? God will not always spare us the hard days, but He will bring His Glory from the midst of our trials.

I know all of you have had old memories and themes pop up over and over the past few weeks. God is stirring these old wounds up so that you will bring them to Him for healing. Many will ignore these moments not realizing God’s intent and design. The enemy is roaring over the Earth BECAUSE God is about to do a Major move over all of creation, Not just Christians. Where the enemy is hitting everyone-is in their soul wounds. Often times people fail to correlate emotional wounds causing physical problems, but I am going to break this down for you today. They are very much joined.

Job 21:23-26 One dies in his full vigor, being wholly at ease and secure, 24 his pails full of milk and the marrow of his bones moist. 25 Another dies in bitterness of soul, never having tasted of prosperity. 26 They lie down alike in the dust, and the worms cover them.

Job is talking about the difference between one person dying with fullness of health in his body and another dies with bitterness which has caused his body to become under disease. If you do a study on the word bitterness in the Bible, you will find a great link to many areas of how the enemy gains legal right over us through just bitterness alone. And I will tell you, that MANY live in Bitterness and claim that they do not. The general definition of bitterness might not apply to you, but I assure you upon further digging, you will find that bitterness entails far more depth to it than the common understanding. Just being bitter in the moment, getting upset, and talking to 3 people about what just happened, is momentary bitterness that does indeed wound your soul. You do not have to carry that bitterness daily to have a bitter reaction that manifests. You may indeed get over things quickly but still have wounds caused by bitterness. This sin also moves into other areas of offense, jealousy, resentment, pride, and the list goes on. Gateways get opened and we can let all of the sin nature just flow right out unchecked. We must be a people of quick realization and repentance in our daily lives. Pay attention to all of the big and small ways sin enters daily. Moses' temper and anger went unchecked for Decades where there was cost and consequences but he did not allow healing in. And one day, it finally cost him the Promise Land. Something so magnificent that God designed as his destiny was lost forever to him.

Right now, the enemy wants you completely distracted so that you are not ready to move into what God has been preparing. The world stage dilemma surely is large enough to cause the Body of Christ to lose focus. The enemy is already defeated. Just continue to pray into it. If we are too focused on the day in and day out progress of this issue, we will miss the fact that this world problem has an end date already on God’s calendar. This is God’s battle. Our job is to focus on the remainder of tasks that He gave us so that we can move into our New Lands- symbolically or physically. Mankind’s history has gone through many worldwide problems that did eventually go away. Do not get sucked into all of the “biblical” spinning going around lately. Stay focused on your here and now.

Years ago, I was working with a woman who had COPD. She was around in her late 30’s and could barely breathe. God started showing me her as a child and the conflict in the home. Then He told me to look up what lungs represented in Chinese medicine. Lungs represent Grief and Loss. As I told her what the Lord was showing me, she told me about how her mother used to make her scrub the floors on her hands and knees and the strong chemicals she was forced to breathe in. As I started to walk her through healing these emotional wounds, within 10 minutes, her lungs were healed. She took a deep breath and started to cry with joy.

When this virus broke out in China, God showed me the evil that was surrounding this attack. It is twofold- man’s desires and the enemy’s joining with that evil heart and mind. If you notice, China has a breakout nearly every two years. You will also notice that nowhere in the past did China respond the way they did with this virus. When we analyze someone’s response many truths can be revealed. I wrote a teaching early on about this virus and my vision of over a million dead in China alone. God said to pray and so I stayed in intercession for weeks before I mentioned China for the first time publicly. Eventually during my praying time, I saw the dead people fade in the background until I could only see the first person that was closest to me in the vision. I can still see her now, but what God was showing me is that the intended effects of this virus would not be reached. In truth, the strain became moderate to weak in China compared to severe as it was created to be. You will find a very weak strain in the USA currently. When I look at the stronghold over Europe, I see pride and stubbornness over the region. They have become a people of wanting their own way for far too long. The enemy has a stronger foothold because of this.

Grief and Loss

This virus attacks and permanently damages the lungs. What God showed me early on is that the Chinese people not only have first-hand Grief and Loss issues because of their nation’s policies on one child, but also generational gateways passed down through the womb. God showed me that this virus was the enemy’s plan to kill a nation that wanted social change and freedom desperately, but also were closer than they knew to receiving it. The Prophetic Word I wrote for China has details to God’s hand of Change over this nation.

Gloom and Doomers

When you listen or read enough Prophetic voices, you will come to the conclusion that they are not unified. It can make you scratch your head on who to trust and believe. Why are some so angry and constantly voicing that God is full of wrath today. Why are others optimistic and voicing God’s mighty hand of promise. Well, I will sum it up in one passage.

Luke 9: 51-56 51 And it came to pass, when the time was come that he should be received up, he stedfastly set his face to go to Jerusalem, 52 And sent messengers before his face: and they went, and entered into a village of the Samaritans, to make ready for him. 53 And they did not receive him, because his face was as though he would go to Jerusalem. 54 And when his disciples James and John saw this, they said, Lord, wilt thou that we command fire to come down from heaven, and consume them, even as Elias did? 55 But he turned, and rebuked them, and said, Ye know not what manner of spirit ye are of. 56 For the Son of man is not come to destroy men's lives, but to save them. And they went to another village.

You see we are still in this Era of Christ coming to save mankind not to destroy it. So does this make the others false prophets? I will put it like this. Years ago, God told me that if I wanted to hear Him accurately, I had to have no opinions. When we have opinions about whatever is before us, God will not shout over us. Our co-creating with God gets muddied by our own will, emotions, and thoughts in the process of God’s pure stream. When you believe God is upset about sin, then you can feel that anything negative happening is because God is striking men down. The truth is Jesus paid the price for everything you and I could ever do, but also all of mankind. The lost do not see they are doing anything wrong. You cannot get repentance from people who are blind. You can only get repentance from those whom the Holy Spirit has rested upon- saved or unsaved. Our job is to expose the darkness but also the Light. Bringing people into the Kingdom through fear never lasts. Once they feel the danger of hell is gone, they are right back to living a sinful life. The Bible speaks to these kinds of people and the consequences of their actions. God does not need to smite them as the consequences will reflect in their life until they get it, much like the Prodigal Son eventually got it. God weeps for these people. Sin destroys and God does not desire anyone to live in sin. These "backslidden" people will suffer loss when they leave this world. They will not walk in the fullness of what they could have had if they truly followed the Lord and became molded in His hands.

So understand that the voices out there are not always speaking from God’s Throne. The enemy has a frequency too. Prophetic people can easily miss God when they have beliefs that are not truth about God and have opinions about the sin in the world. You can have righteous anger about sin, but God shows compassion and love towards those who are fallen and hurting, myself included. Many just need religious correction. Early in my psychotherapy career, I worked for several mental health agencies. It was not encouraged to present as a Christian, but it was actually an advantage to me. In my initial intake, I would ask about their religious and spiritual beliefs. I would find out where they stood with God on a simple required question. Now, I will tell you that of the 90% who stated they had some religious beliefs, all of them were stuck because they believed that their current or past issues were somehow because of God. As I walked them through healing, the door would open in their heart, and I would walk them right back into God’s arms. God did not send them for me to give a lecture or to say God was upset with them. This is different than the truth of their actions causing consequences and pruning that will need to happen. We all have to own our part and be stripped at times of the junk we carry around slinging at others. My job is to free the captives and bring them home. In fact, God calls me His Little Zerubbabel. I wear God’s signet ring and I will not forsake that to give you garbage and lies. I remain on purpose for God. He has entrusted me with a heavy and great responsibility that I do not ever take lightly. What I instruct you to do are things that I have already walked through before the Lord. I am forever on My Lord’s Potter’s Wheel being molded into the likeness of My Savior.

Genesis 41:50-52

50 Before the year of famine came, two sons were born to Joseph. Asenath, the daughter of Potiphera priest of On, bore them to him. 51 Joseph called the name of the firstborn Manasseh. “For,” he said, “God has made me forget all my hardship and all my father's house.” 52 The name of the second he called Ephraim, “For God has made me fruitful in the land of my affliction.

God desires to heal you from the hardship and make you fruitful in the land before you. Do not miss out on what He is up to in this Hour! God is still on the Throne and completely in Charge!


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